balancing act

I'm having trouble with that fabled concept of balance. 

When I was training to be a life coach, we learned that seeking balance can actually throw you OUT of balance. It's that age-old truth: when you want something too much you are incapable of finding or creating it. The key in those situations is to just move forward, follow your interests, keep to a schedule, find your own freedom in perseverance and to not waste your years seeking the Fountain of Youth (or in this case, balance). 

It's one of those things I think where once you stop seeking it and obsessing over it, you're able to find it.   

Which i think is why I don't have it in my life. 

I am constantly planning, plotting, figuring, solving, thinking, obsessing. I am forever trying to put the pieces of my life together in the right order so I can create this Balanced Life. 

I want family time, romance, fun, happiness, productivity, exercise, work, organization, relaxation. I want it all. I want to be able to spend productive and quality time with my child, with my husband, with my friends, with my family. I want to make money on things I enjoy. I want to have an organized household. I want to cook and eat healthy, I want to work out and enjoy the world around me. I want to make sure the people who i love know i love them. I want to send cards and gifts in the mail on TIME for the events they're intended. 

I want to do it all. 

So I'm working at figuring it out one step at a time and instead of planning it all out, i'm just DOING it when I can. I find myself squeezing in little bits of things into the spaces in between. If i have a minute or two, I don't sit and veg out on my phone as much anymore, instead i try to write or organize or study. I do what I can when I can and don't beat myself up for it not being more. I'm just taking it a day at a time and I know that the better i get at this the more i'll learn along the way. 

So there's my random thought for the day about balance. Not sure if it's helpful or not but it is what it is.

And for now, I'm going to go spend some time with my little baby who needs hugs and snuggles.